despite my doubts about last night it turned out quite good. despite the JV operation getting the beer it worked out ok. i played the most intense game of beirut i have ever been involved in. holy crap. after that i blacked out and only have bits and pieces of what happened. thankfully i couldnt figure out the door to our room so i didnt leave the suite. apparently when hamel and reshma came back i was sitting on the couch with a beer in my hand watching sportscenter with the methuen little league hat and the 8-ball jacket on. tonight should be good too. i dressed up all snazzy for the ladies though i will likely be drunk before they get here and thereby be totally tactless as usual. oh well.

this will be the last entry of the night if things go as they are now. i grow more angry every day that i lost my id. i have literally tapped almost all of my resources to get beer and come up empty. thankfully, my birthday is coming up and my brother has promised me another id. yippee! unfortunately that does not help me now. i am currently devising a scheme to aquire some.

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while surfing the web early this morning i came upon this gem of a website: Gem and im sure as i continue to dick around on the information superhighway ill find some more goodies aka things to waste time reading/looking at, to share with all of my fellow college students.

RobbieB333: Dawson needs to fall into the creek and die
WHITETRASHKATEER: you need to fall in a creek and die

as i have spent the morning playing game cube and riding the scooter around our room i get the feeling that everyone else is doing something better than me.

i received the wonderful news after meeting with my advisor today that i am in fact the only person in all of chemical engineering without a co-op job. i suck.

i went with mahky today to the fens due to my stupidly boring day and we watched the Boston Latin football team practice. they need a lot of work, and it looks like they are going to have a terrible season.

what a fantastic day! first i woke up around 130 then i didnt get a job all day.

while on the train home from my family reunion i grabbed a copy of the boston phoenix to occupy my time. i skipped around looking for something reasonable to read about and i stumbled upon an article that kept me up a very large portion of last evening. the article was by Cecil Adams and entitled "Straight Dope", but i dont really understand what the title means. it begins by saying "If the philosopher Martin Heideger wasa Nazi and an anti-Semite until his death in 1976, why do we continue to revere the ground he walked on? The guy was a louse and yet he is considered the major voice of postmodern thought!" As the article went on to explain how this guy was an awful person virtually holding hitlers hand as they tossed bodies into the incinerator. but as the article states, "... if the work is brilliant, does it matter if the author is a jerk?". now, as i get to the point that would not allow sleep to come to me, the article mentioned briefly what Heidegger had spent his life trying to explain: "why does modern life suck?" i got to thinking about this and got to thinking about his point. with all of the "evolution" that mankind has undergone and all of the amazing advances in technology still in the world exists genocide, mass hunger as well as countless other horrible things. how can the quality of life for all of humanity be improved? at first i looked to the total equality of communism and thought (admittedly foolishly) that perhaps we could suceed where the other communist/socialist nations had not. but the defining human characteristic associated with our country defies the entire principle. greed. coupled with ambition, communism would fail miserably and one need look no farther than china or north korea to see that. there is a reason people risk the death penalty to escape. my next thought turned to anarchy. without a formal or even informal government people could do as they pleased and theoretically have more freedom. but then i only needed to remember that if there was no government, someone high in the military would seize control using their military influence and our life would not improve, (cuba). so obviously anarchy would undoubtedly turn very quickly to dictatorship. i fell asleep feeling very unfulfilled and dissatisfied.