RobbieB333: Dawson needs to fall into the creek and die
WHITETRASHKATEER: you need to fall in a creek and die

as i have spent the morning playing game cube and riding the scooter around our room i get the feeling that everyone else is doing something better than me.

i received the wonderful news after meeting with my advisor today that i am in fact the only person in all of chemical engineering without a co-op job. i suck.

i went with mahky today to the fens due to my stupidly boring day and we watched the Boston Latin football team practice. they need a lot of work, and it looks like they are going to have a terrible season.

what a fantastic day! first i woke up around 130 then i didnt get a job all day.

while on the train home from my family reunion i grabbed a copy of the boston phoenix to occupy my time. i skipped around looking for something reasonable to read about and i stumbled upon an article that kept me up a very large portion of last evening. the article was by Cecil Adams and entitled "Straight Dope", but i dont really understand what the title means. it begins by saying "If the philosopher Martin Heideger wasa Nazi and an anti-Semite until his death in 1976, why do we continue to revere the ground he walked on? The guy was a louse and yet he is considered the major voice of postmodern thought!" As the article went on to explain how this guy was an awful person virtually holding hitlers hand as they tossed bodies into the incinerator. but as the article states, "... if the work is brilliant, does it matter if the author is a jerk?". now, as i get to the point that would not allow sleep to come to me, the article mentioned briefly what Heidegger had spent his life trying to explain: "why does modern life suck?" i got to thinking about this and got to thinking about his point. with all of the "evolution" that mankind has undergone and all of the amazing advances in technology still in the world exists genocide, mass hunger as well as countless other horrible things. how can the quality of life for all of humanity be improved? at first i looked to the total equality of communism and thought (admittedly foolishly) that perhaps we could suceed where the other communist/socialist nations had not. but the defining human characteristic associated with our country defies the entire principle. greed. coupled with ambition, communism would fail miserably and one need look no farther than china or north korea to see that. there is a reason people risk the death penalty to escape. my next thought turned to anarchy. without a formal or even informal government people could do as they pleased and theoretically have more freedom. but then i only needed to remember that if there was no government, someone high in the military would seize control using their military influence and our life would not improve, (cuba). so obviously anarchy would undoubtedly turn very quickly to dictatorship. i fell asleep feeling very unfulfilled and dissatisfied.

holy mother of god, i remember why i stopped going to the gym. i am one sore bastard

here is an email i just sent to my mom:
i havent gotten my internship yet cause my advisor sucks. im pissed, and i dont have any money. zero dollars and zero cents. i was planning on having the money for my truck last monday and ive been borrowing since. it sucks a whole bunch. i dont know. i dont understand why you cant send me my money until friday. that means i dont get it until monday a wonderful 2 weeks after i needed it. if you want you can take the money for the friggin stamp out of the money you send. whatever. i call my advisor everyday and he doesnt seem to know what he is doing, but i really need a co-op because i have to pay for like 7000$ for my tuition this year and that will be hard making 8 bucks an hour at starbucks or something like that. so i am saying to hell with co-op for now and just getting a crappy job until my advisor gets his head out of his ass.
your pissed off son,
matt

a conversation had with my drunk brother:
Daemione: bitch.
WHITETRASHKATEER: i am unable to make my sound work
Daemione: i am unable to comprehend why the red sox have not been mathematically elimianted.
Daemione: so give me acookie.
WHITETRASHKATEER: haha
Daemione: what's with you rsound card drivers?
WHITETRASHKATEER: it likes men
WHITETRASHKATEER: it isnt on that cd with all the other stuff
Daemione: ah. well, take Vermont foward.
Daemione: not back.
WHITETRASHKATEER: good point

this day has started off very crappy

no progress on getting things squared away with my computer and i discovered something extra annoying. now any time i turn on direct connect all kinds of files and folders appear on my desktop. it is terrible. we moved in the entertainment unit and after moving furniture around for like two hours we finally decided on a place. it looks pretty good but im having trouble feeling happy about it cause im so pissed about my computer. if you buy a computer, dont buy one from dell. they suck butt.

ok, so i decided to format my computers hard disk. it now has nothing on it, which was a desired result however, i can only have 16 colors and on the biggest setting, so icons are humongous and all websites and things look like hell because of the colors. this sucks. i wish i knew how to fix it.

what a great night. some bad things are that i was woken up by a crazy phone call about a survey. plus i have an amazing hangover. sorry to all of those fools who that that i was here when i didnt have my away message up. when there are people over they take down my away message and dont put it back up. my phone number is 617-377-1354. it is real good.

since school has begun i have started making blog entries but none were getting published. it looked to me that they were but i discovered that my template had been erased. while this probably means nothing to most of you, i have fixed the problem so all of the entries from the last week are now back so everything should be in fine working order.

classes start tomorrow and since i dont have any of them that makes me glad. it doesnt make me glad however that i am ridiculously bored even right now. despite what my away message may have said between the hours of 1230 and 230, the truth is that i was playing fly the copter, and i would put a link to the game if i could remember how to do that.